An introduction

My name is Amber, though most people call me Jamber. I'm am 29 years old. I have an amazing husband named Jon. We have been married almost 11 years. Together we have 4 kids. Hanna is 9, Gibson is 7, Sofia is 4, and Molly is 9 months. 

I am a member of the LDS church, also known as Mormon. I love the gospel and am grateful for it. I'm also very liberal and unlike most LDS members I support gay marriage. I've had people ask me how I do it. The bottom line is that I don't understand everything. But what I do know is that the fundamentals of the gospel are true and the rest will work itself out. I know people in my religion judge me for my beliefs and to that I say " it is not your place to judge. The Lord knows my heart." 

I absolutely love being a mom. It's so hard sometimes and I think life might be easier if I ran away ( I never would of course) but it's the most rewarding thing I've ever done. My kids make me so happy. I try to practice mostly attachment parenting. All though I hate putting a lable on myself. I feel like my kids feelings are real feelings and they deserve to be heard. Sometimes I mess up and yell but I'm not perfect. But I always make sure when my kids lay down at night they know I love them with all of my heart. 

I would love nothing more than to be a stay at home mom. Right now I'm working about 20 hours a week at a children's clothing store. I miss my family while I am there. With where we are financially right now working is the best thing. I've had a bunch if crappy jobs since I've been married and I've never been at one of them for very long. I'm always called back home to being a mommy. Luckily I really like the job I have now and it's working out well. 

I have rather low self esteem and it's something I've been working on improving. The last thing I want is for my kids to grow up thinking poorly of themselves. I'm very emotional and can be very irrational. Another thing in working on. Luckily I have great people surrounding me who understand and can help to calm me down.

That's a lot of info all at once and most likely if you are reading this you already know all of this info... Again this blog is mainly for me to clear my mind. But to end this post I want to say I am incredibly blessed and I love my life... Until next time.